Thinking of the afterlife as an atheist is rather refreshing. I feel like I don't live in fear of death anymore. It's eye opening to know it's another part of the natural world. After my brain stops thinking I am silent and dead, it's ok. Eternal sleep sounds a lot better than eternal worshipping of something that has caused so much turmoil to humanity and even thinking if I don't bow down he says fu&* you, now burn in hell. It's all just a silly concept to me.
I like what Mark Twain had to say, "I have been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it." Who and what in the universe cares that we are here? Seeing what science has discovered and proven, and knowing about the vast universe IS perspective that religion is so selfish and non realistic. Humans are so arrogant to think GOD created all this for US. We've become to think we're more entitled to destroy our planet and live for death. We become or at least I was living by taking no responsibility of my actions before. I was living with Jesus as my scapegoat that it's "ok" I asked for forgiveness from him, I prayed about it and am making my peace with god. I wouldn't actually humble myself before another human and admit I was wrong, at least if Jesus came back then I would be set right. I didn't take or act responsibly, my thinking was lazy and tunnel focused. I feel now I treat people with a deeper respect and know this life is unique and what we have evolved into makes me think of what humanity is currently evolving into now and what it will be. I feel like I am more entitled to do things and not just sit here and pray about them.
Life is entangled so beautifully. I like the settling with knowing I am stardust and I will be recycled as such when I am dead.
Instead of being so fixated on death and after it, I am so drawn to living now and making it more meaningful. Instead of praying and trying to believe things, do things, know reality.
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Erica,
ReplyDeleteI've been reading your blog this afternoon (instead of finishing some much needed work), and I find that I can really identify with your thoughts and feelings toward Christianity. Growing up where we did, religion was a dominate feature in the community and I always felt out of step and excluded because I wasn't baptized this or that particular religion. Now I can see how much of a blessing that was! I applaud you for your honesty and for being brave. This kind of thing isn't easy, but I hope that you have people in your life that are accepting and loving - as all humans should be, no matter what! As for me and my faith, I'm honestly still testing the waters. But I know that if and when I have that relationship with God, religion will not play a part in it. Those concepts, God and religion, are not the same thing and I'm wondering why so many people have to marry the two together.
Keep up the blog - it is very enjoyable to read and as a writer, you are doing excellent. :)
Thank you Janessa! You message means a lot so thank you for taking the time. Luckily the people that mean the most are indeed the most understanding and are able to love me unconditionally. I am so fascinated by people that did not grow up in these crazy delusions. God is a touchy subject that I have danced with and now around for too long. I like to send my little piece I have in it and allow people to draw whatever conclusions they wish or at least begin thinking. One thing I have found is honesty is rather refreshing! People love it and can connect, I did not find that at all in the church it was always, "well I should think this and believe that but I really haven't read it." Good luck in your search and thank you so much for reading : )
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